Oh, what a difference an hour makes

I have never been a morning person.  I was the kid whose parents had to go into their bedroom at noon to make sure they were still breathing.

About 2 years ago I was inspired by Abundant Mama Shawn Fink’s Rise & Shine Challenge and started *trying* to set the alarm clock to get up before my kids.  I say *try* because it’s something I don’t do consistently.  My level of success goes up and down depending on the season, the weather, my health, and my overall motivation.  I can say that when I DO Rise & Shine, I am much happier.  Why would I be happier to wake up at 5am (yes, my kids wake up at 6, so getting up “earlier than my kids” means setting the alarm at 5 or 5:15am).

Check out these 2 scenarios:

Scenario 1 | “Sleeping in” | I am warm and cozy, snoozing away in bed.  One of my kids loudly come out of their bedroom, and I am startled awake.  I immediately think “OMG, why are they up so early?!?!?!  ?@%! This sucks!” as I climb out of bed and join a child who undoubtedly WANTS SOMETHING.  Ugh.

Scenario 2 | Rising & Shining | The alarm wakes me up.  I’m not going to lie- I am not thrilled about it.  But, because I got to bed at a reasonable hour the night before, I feel rested.  I think about coffee.  I climb out of bed and tiptoe to the kitchen, where I immediately put on a cup.  I go to my computer and start working on a project.  Because I was intentional about choosing what I will work on the evening before, I don’t need to hem and haw- I can get right to it.  Because my mind is clear, I am productive.  I typically get more done in this first hour than I do in double that time during the day.  Because I have already woken up, had some coffee, and been productive, I am calm when my children come out of their bedroom.  I smile at them, say good morning, and give them a hug.  I am ready to start my day.Others take this

Scenario 2 all the way, right?

Others take this precious morning time for self-care. They journal or do yoga.  My process is to take a few minutes before going to bed to ask myself “What’s the one thing that I can get done in the morning that will make the rest of the day better/easier/happier?”  Oftentimes it’s something that I’ve been meaning to do and can’t seem to check off my list because it involves some thought.  Early morning is a perfect time for me to do those kinds of things. the weather has been very rainy, I’ve been fighting some kind of cold/cough, and I’ve been staying up later than I’d like.

Well, I haven’t been Rising and Shining lately.  The weather has been really rainy, I’ve been fighting some kind of cold/cough, and I’ve been staying up later than I’d like.  And of course, I’ve been feeling “behind”, bleh, all of those feelings I get when I don’t have that most grounding hour of my day.

I’ll find my way back again.  This rain and cough can’t last forever, right?

So, talk to me.  Do you get up early so that you can have some time alone?  What would you do with that hour?

Moving Forward Without All Of the Answers

Do you ever have the feeling that you want to do or be more, but aren’t sure what that “more” is, or what you can do in order to be the best version of yourself that you can be?

Yeah, me too.

So many questions I constantly ask myself:

-How can I lead?

-How can I make the most of this life I’ve been given?

-How can I take all of the projects, ideas, and passions that I have and make enough space around each of them in order to really make a real contribution to each one?

-How do I make the most impact?

-How do I stop, take a deep breath, and just let it all go for a few moments so that I am present during the time I’m with my family and my friends?  So that I can recharge?

-How do I make space to do bigger picture brainstorming to get ideas out of my head and into action?

-Where can I learn to say “no” to activities and projects that don’t serve my bigger purpose?

-How do I improve at something that I have a difficult time doing – organizing all of the thoughts into my head into coherent sentences? :-)

I love the work that I do around disability advocacy and inclusion, and I love the business that I am building as an event manager.  I often dream about how to create a brand for myself that encompasses both, one that embodies who I am as a whole person and doesn’t require compartmentalizing the two.  That dream often paralyzes me from just doing something.

I am very aware that I like things tied up with a neat little bow.   And that planning, that “polishing” often holds me back from the doing.

I was recently watching a show where Seth Godin was being interviewed.  He said something that really struck me- that you should  “work to ship” instead of “work to polish”.  He talked about how when he devote time to something, he knows that at the end of that time that there will be an end result- something will be done.  Getting something done vs expecting perfection… what a scary concept, huh?  Read his blog post about this issue: You need to press the buzzer before you know the answer.

So, despite the imperfections of this blog post, I will now press “publish”.

I want to hear from you. How are you all pushing yourself to be the best version of yourself that you can be? In what ways have you pushed forward and “pressed the buzzer” without knowing the answer?

Creating Ripples Is Enough

“I alone cannot change the world, but I can cast a stone across the waters to create many ripples.” – Mother Teresa

I often have parents contact me because they want inclusion for their child and they don’t know how to make it happen. Often they ask for specific steps.  Sometimes they just need some reminders, and inspiration and courage. I’ve had many of those parents get their child in an inclusive setting.

Then there are those who don’t.

I have a difficult time letting go of those.

I started to write a long blog post about this, but then stopped.  Because what it comes down to is simply this:

I can’t change the world, and that’s OK.

And so tonight, and moving forward, I will try hard to focus more on the successes than the disappointments.

I will remember that it doesn’t fall on my shoulders to do all of the work.

I will remember that any change that has been bought about because of Sabrina’s story has been Sabrina’s change, and not mine.  She has changed so many hearts, and she’s only 9.  She will continue to do great work, and I will continue to fight to allow her to do so.

And now, instead of trying to put into words all that is in my head, I will let it go, and go to bed.

Playing Big

Play BigWhat does “playing big” mean to you?

Is it starting your own business?

Is it pursuing a creative outlet, like creating art?

Is it making a systems change within your current work environment?

Is it getting up the courage to make a presentation in front of a group of colleagues?

Is it moving your child with special needs to their neighborhood school?

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The Words That Stopped Me In My Tracks

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We were hiking with 2 of Sabrina’s friends when I heard the words.

We had stopped to take a snack break. Sabrina was hoarding the can of Pringles, and we were all laughing about how she had pushed her friend’s hand away when the friend tried to get in the can (Sabrina’s can, apparently).   As we laughed, Sabrina’s sister gave her a huge hug.  And then heard the words.

“Sabrina, you are so loved.”

I stopped what I was doing and looked up and just stared.  I stared at her friend’s face, the one who said it.   She was looking at Sabrina with a huge smile on her face.  I looked at her other friend’s face, and it was completely unmoved, like those words had been casual words, and nothing out of the ordinary.  I looked at Sabrina, who was nonchalantly chomping away at her Pringles, unaware of how huge those words were.  Then I looked at my younger daughter’s face, Sabrina’s little sister.  She too was staring at the friend who said it.  I could tell it made an impact on her.  She looked back at Sabrina, and then gave her another hug.

Those words had a big impact on me.  I flashed back to 3.5 years ago, before Sabrina was at our neighborhood school, and how the thought of hearing something like that from one of Sabrina’s typical classmates would have been a complete dream.

Sabrina’s sister and I talked about it later, and she repeated the words to Sabrina.  “Mama, she said ‘Sabrina, you’re so loved’!  It was so sweet!”  They had a big impact on her, too.

This is why I love sending Sabrina to school every day.  Because Sabrina is building a little community of kids who see what a sweet little soul she is.  A community of kids who know her, who warmly greet her in the morning and say “Come on, Sabrina, let’s stand in line together.” A community of kids who are excited about and proud of her accomplishments, no matter how small.

Isn’t that what any parent wants for their child?

They said…

…that you would work in the back of the classroom, isolated from the class…

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…that you wouldn’t have any friends and that the other children wouldn’t relate to you…

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…that you would be overwhelmed and would hate going to school…

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…that you don’t notice what’s going on around you and therefore wouldn’t benefit to being around other kids…

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…that you wouldn’t be engaging in anything meaningful…

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…that after 3 years in a self-contained classroom you were just starting to respond to your peers reaching out to you, and that putting you in an inclusive setting with more demands would hinder that “progress”…

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…that because you don’t have very much verbal ability, that you wouldn’t be able to participate in presentations, etc….

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… that you wouldn’t be embraced and the other children wouldn’t want you in the classroom…

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…that you wouldn’t be able to participate in the general education curriculum…

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Remember Sabrina, don’t ever let anyone’s ignorance and assumptions limit you!

Portfolios

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“Her portfolio is her marketing package.”

That’s what someone in the field of inclusion just recently told me.

Yes!

I’m spending some time working on Sabrina’s portfolio today.  She’s had one for about a year now, but I’m updating it and adding more information about her recently activities and sports, and adding a section for the future.

Sabrina’s portfolio highlights who she is, and what she can do and accomplish.  It explains how people can help support her.  And it explains the high expectations we have for what she can accomplish and who she can continue to be.

Now that she’s in school, it’s used to introduce her to new teachers and staff.  It’ll be used to show what she can accomplish in an inclusive setting.  It’ll be used during various transitions, to show our expectations for her life.

Does your child or the child you support have a portfolio?

Happy Birthday, Dr. Suess!

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Receiving this message from Sabrina’s teacher today made my day and made me teary.

“In honor of Dr Suess’ birthday today, I knew Sabrina loved his books and knew the words, so she was a star. She read a Dr Suess book to the class and everyone clapped for her! She did a beautiful job!”

Thank you, Ms. Morgan!

Why Sabrina WON’T Always Live With Us

IMG_3101A lot of people ask us if we think Sabrina will live with us for the rest of her lives. Those are people who have never met her. Those people who have met her just assume she will. I always assumed the same.

I no longer do.

My thoughts on this have changed dramatically since I’ve been involved in attending conferences about inclusion, and have had the opportunity to hear stories about adults with significant disabilities who are leading self-determined lives.  After attending CalTASH’s Regional Conference last week, I’m again reminded of the reasons I no longer envision that Sabrina will always live with us, and the reasons I don’t want her too. Here’s why.

She won’t want to. | What early young adult wants to live with her parents? Well, OK, more and more these days do. But Sabrina is a kid who on the weekends will bring us her backpack, start rattling off her friends’ names, say things to us like “line up”, and then bring us her shoes. And she’s only 9. What makes us think that she’ll want to hang out with us even more when she’s 20?

Because Ken and I need to have a normal life, too. |  Enough said.

{And the kicker, right here…}

Because we need to have a great plan in place for her before we’re gone. |  I’ve heard people say that never in their lifetime would they allow their child to live somewhere else, that they won’t feel safe unless their child is with them.  But isn’t that a somewhat false sense of security?  The  fact is that unless something unfortunate happens, Ken and I will pass away before Sabrina does.  And that’s the scariest thought to a parent of a child with a disability.  I try to not let it keep me up at night.

But I have to believe that I would feel much more at peace with that time coming if I knew that my daughter was already living in a situation that was safe, that made her happy, and that was sustainable.  

And no, I don’t expect Sabrina to live with Alexa after we’re gone. Because in my opinion, that’s just unfair. What I do expect is that Alexa makes sure that Sabrina is OK.  That may mean a variety of things. But it won’t mean living together.

So now what?  What does a life for an adult with significant needs look like? Stay tuned for Part 2!

Some Monday Inspiration

“People try to define who I am, but I’ll do that myself.”  -Brandon Gruber

Last Friday I had the pleasure of meeting Brandon Gruber, a teen who was recently featured in People Magazine. He was featured not because he was homecoming king and has Down Syndrome (although both are true). He was featured because after he was crowned homecoming king he decided to open doors to others who don’t feel included.

Last year he raised $20,000 by selling his artwork and accepting donations, and all of that money was used to provide financial support to those who were unable to pay for prom, yearbooks, camps, and more.

If you wish to purchase cards with Brandon’s beautiful artwork on it, or just want to check out his story, visit his site at www.321life.com.